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Summer sucks.

merriamwebsterdictionary:

reasons why winter is better than summer:

• little to no insects (◕‿◕✿) 
• sweaters all the time (◠△◠✿)
• the air is nice and fresh smelling (◡‿◡✿)
• sometimes it snows and you get out of school \(◕‿◕✿)/
• snow is pretty (´･ω･`)
• no pollen (▰˘◡˘▰) 
• it gets darker faster so theres more nighttime and more time to look at the stars (ᅌᴗᅌ* )
• everything is dead just the way i like it (⊙‿⊙✿)

(via ghostsreverie)

I think I need to appreciate my family more.

I’ve never been one to care that much about my family, particularly my parents. I guess I always took them for granted. There was never really a defining moment where I just felt like extra appreciation or something was warranted. That all changed when I was at the hospital today to visit Jon, a close friend of a few of my roomies. I didn’t know Jon very well, but  from my conversations with him, I can tell he’s a really good guy with a good sense of humor and just altogether a good person. He’s a legit guy for sure. 

His family and friends waited hours just to see him as he apparently had broken both his legs, broke his ribs, damaged his lungs, and has severe damage to his brain from a motorcycle accident that’s still being investigated. I feel terrible for his family. His father still had a sense of humor somehow. I guess amidst all the drama going on, people will be who they naturally are. In this case, his dad is just a funny and easy going fellow. His mother could only sit there and cry, and same for his cousins and aunts. I nearly shed a tear also upon seeing him knocked out on the bed, kept alive by life support. Doctors had decided to cut him loose, but eventually changed their minds. Holy shit, I would’ve caused some fucking drama if that had happened. 

Seeing his family and friends surround him during this dire situation really made me realize how family means so much to a person. At the end of the day, it’s your family that will care for you. It’s your family that will be at your graduation ceremonies, your birthday dinners, your bedside when you get injured, and everything in between. I really wanna see my cousins in NorCal now. I know my mom will for sure be at my side when shit gets tough, and do I even deserve it? I’ve treated her like garbage and I know it. I’ve always felt like it’s what she deserves, but looking back, I can see why, but still she deserves better. 

It didn’t take some stupid faux holiday to help me realize that I should appreciate my mother. Yes, even though today is Mother’s Day, it took a collective display of love from a friend’s family and his friends to really make me appreciate her and the rest of my family. I’m gonna wake up in the morning, drop a few bills on sushi for lunch, and then buy my mom a nice Mother’s Day gift. THOUGH NOT FOR MOTHER’S DAY! Spontaneously, but it just so happens it is Mother’s Day. 

P.S. Godspeed to Jon and everyone close to him: his parents, Marie, Bryan, the rest of his family and friends. Let’s hope Jon is alright and has a speedy recovery.